I arise in the morning torn between a desire to improve the world and a desire to enjoy the world. This makes it hard to plan the day.
I laughed, then read the quote again while in a coffee shop last week with my mom. It was on the ceiling and there I stood with my neck twisted up to read it yet again. That is it… that quote is me and it pretty much explains the piles of laundry, too many photos of my children to sort through and my commitment to Jesus and this blog. (and a whole mess of other things I have going on in my life)
I am exhausted, and I don’t say that to complain, but I am being honest. I fear that I have been bent towards complaining or talking too much about all the medical issues Grady has going on right now in conversation. I think back to conversations with friends this last week, and I hear myself talking a lot more than listening. I need to turn to the Father Upstairs more obediently. I don’t want it to turn into a pity party, nor do I want it to shine some undesirable light onto Grady’s genetic makeup. Most everything we are dealing with can be found in typical children as well. I will say I am out of my Mamma-lisa (im an artist, nonchalant, cough cough lazy, go with the flow baby, nap time anyone, snap flash) comfort zone. Grady seems to be piling up the -ologists this month. This is new territory for me and makes the qoute above hard to abide by in the sense of my desired normal. The world of medications and routine are making me dig deep for my inner momologist to come out.
I am grateful and thankful for everything that Grady is. How he smiled the whole time through his tummy ultrasound today (while the tech was nervous she would traumatize him) I assured her no such thing would happen with our Grady Man… he was content….and when the barium was all over his hair after his swallow study today his eyes still shined with adoration for his mamma despite the circumstances. He takes trucking around NYC in style when going to his appt’s all the while gracing everyone with his pleasent demeanor.
I can do all things through Christ that strengthens me. Philippians 4:13
~audiologist, endocrinologist, pulmonologist, gastroenterologist, optamologist, urologist.~
I can handle all these reflux/gastro meds, I got this.
I can give him the inhaler for asthma, I got this.
I can administer the thyroid meds, I got this.
I can be obedient with putting on his glasses, I got this.
I can wean him onto a bottle, I got this.
I am a
(who likes to nap still)